Monday, January 31, 2005

Love makes the world go around Posted by Hello

The Soul Craves Love

Just got off the phone with my mom. Kinda of feeling sad. I am currently living in my mom's house all alone and today my emotions stirred deep within me. Things haven't gone the way I had previously envisioned, especially in the relationship department. Relationships just seem so hard. Regularly find myself vacillating between acceptance of the other and trying to communicate what I need and desire. So difficult at times because when one begans sharing one's deepest needs, hurts, pains, and fears, it can be threatening to hear. Don't intend to threaten or want to manipulate situation but intentions are not always recieved in the spirit that is given. Currently reading Thomas Moore's book the Dark Nights of the Soul. Reminded of the fact that individuals not only experience periods of darkness but so do couples, lovers, husbands and wives. Alot of folks and couples I suspect repress the darkness in our soul and would rather not open the door when the dark angel comes knocking... Problem is.....he will come back....again and why repress?....guess most folks can only handle so much in a day, week or month.....and thus I have learned to be patient with myself when I succumb to shutting the door and demand that he come back another day.....I'll exit with a couple of quotes from Moore's book......But to choose not to love is to decide not to live. Everyone needs to love and to be loved. .....The soul craves love, and if you give up on love because it is so difficult, the life will seep out of you like air out of a punctured tire....and finally.....Waiting for another person to love you is not living. Once you allow your own life to flow, you have the best chance of attracting the lover you should have.....Bilbo

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Welcome to Bilbo's Blog Posted by Hello


After spending about three hours experienting I think I have finally figured out the basics of blogging via this particular blog format. Very frustrating for the first two and a half hours since my internet background is limited but am now quite satisfied to finally see some results!....Became interested in blogging after checking out the blogs created by a couple of friends and figured I might give it a whirl. Over the past couple of years I have spent a significant amount of time journaling and thought I might use this as an on line journal of sorts. At this stage I am not sure what I intend to do with this new toy because I am not sure how much of my personal life I want to share. May just limit my entries to interests, hobbies, ramblings,musings, and the like...well see...musings from the Shire.....Bill/Bilbo